Holding On For You

This 7.17.08 song is one i'm really not to sure about. there are somethings i want to change i just don't know WHAT. There's no chorus so it reads more as a ballad then anything else... *gulp*
I can't hold on. I can't look you in the eye. When i try to be strong, the tears fall again. I try to find the silver lining but all i seem to see is gray. It ain't right that i can't take this anymore. Enduring the pain is easy for me now, but the wounds in my heart are never gonna go away now. Somedays all i want is someone to hold me, somedays it's all i need. But then i look around me and there's no one there to see that i'm not ok, that i'm not alright.
Then there you are, whith your arms around my shoulders telling me that i'll be ok. That i'll see the light again. And i try to beleive every word that you say. I knew the moment you became my anchor to this world i'd have to let you go, but until that day comes i know you'll always show me the clouds in front of the sun are silver, that scars always fade.
Enduring the pain is easy... is my least favorite line. but the metaphors i think really show i feel. this kind of describes the person i needed a few years ago when i was fairly depressed, and is the person i have now (what would i do with out all my lovely friends?). so there's some of my story that you probably didn't need or really even want to know, but it helps make the song make sense i think. i hope anyway.