This 7.17.08 song is one i'm really not to sure about. there are somethings i want to change i just don't know WHAT. There's no chorus so it reads more as a ballad then anything else... *gulp*
I can't hold on. I can't look you in the eye. When i try to be strong, the tears fall again. I try to find the silver lining but all i seem to see is gray. It ain't right that i can't take this anymore. Enduring the pain is easy for me now, but the wounds in my heart are never gonna go away now. Somedays all i want is someone to hold me, somedays it's all i need. But then i look around me and there's no one there to see that i'm not ok, that i'm not alright.
Then there you are, whith your arms around my shoulders telling me that i'll be ok. That i'll see the light again. And i try to beleive every word that you say. I knew the moment you became my anchor to this world i'd have to let you go, but until that day comes i know you'll always show me the clouds in front of the sun are silver, that scars always fade.
Enduring the pain is easy... is my least favorite line. but the metaphors i think really show i feel. this kind of describes the person i needed a few years ago when i was fairly depressed, and is the person i have now (what would i do with out all my lovely friends?). so there's some of my story that you probably didn't need or really even want to know, but it helps make the song make sense i think. i hope anyway.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Looking Back (Everytime)
Yay! 2 days in a row. i'm proud of me. here's one written 5.14.08. the title is just gonna be in the title now. saves me the trouble of typing it twice(in case you didn't figure that out yet). There are few parts (i.e., the first line of the CHORUS that i'm not sure about), but there are some lines i heart.
Somedays i think you ain't too bright. somedays i could worship the ground you walk on. it's up and down and all around and my head is spinning. somedays all i want to ask is do you want me or not? baby you're drivin' me insane dancin' around what will never be. I know that we've been over this a million times before, but sometthings still aren't clear. CHORUS:I wish that we could just be without all the ups and sowns that you so graciously provide. i know that somethings will never change but everytime i look in your eyes there's something there i just can't shake.// All i want to know is what you're tryin' to hide. It's always there in your eyes. I thought you knew you could tell me anything.I ain't gonna leave baby, not when i've been left so many times before. CHORUS Bein' with you is always a ride, that i can never deny. You have all your secrets that you're tryin' to hide and I'd like to say all that's left is good-bye, but everytime i turn my back, i have to keep looking back.
Somedays i think you ain't too bright. somedays i could worship the ground you walk on. it's up and down and all around and my head is spinning. somedays all i want to ask is do you want me or not? baby you're drivin' me insane dancin' around what will never be. I know that we've been over this a million times before, but sometthings still aren't clear. CHORUS:I wish that we could just be without all the ups and sowns that you so graciously provide. i know that somethings will never change but everytime i look in your eyes there's something there i just can't shake.// All i want to know is what you're tryin' to hide. It's always there in your eyes. I thought you knew you could tell me anything.I ain't gonna leave baby, not when i've been left so many times before. CHORUS Bein' with you is always a ride, that i can never deny. You have all your secrets that you're tryin' to hide and I'd like to say all that's left is good-bye, but everytime i turn my back, i have to keep looking back.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Gonna Be Your Last
Gonna Be Your Last Told you guys i'd be back soon. and here i am. this one's called Gonna Be Your Last, and well it's about a friend who we were really worried about there for a while. he's pretty much ok now though.So here it is:When I'm lookin' at you it's not like i'm lookin' at the guy i know. it scares me when you're eyes are dead. it makes me wonder what you do behind closed doors. CHORUS:Baby, this ain't the good kind of wonderin' when you look like you want to cry. when i'm afraid that every move you make is gonna be your last. It ain't the good kind of wondering when i don't have to wonder what's on your mind.//I don't like being scared to leave you alone 'cause i don't know if you'll come back to me in one piece or not. why can't you see how much we all care and how much we worry when we've all been there. CHORUS You've gotten so bad and none of us know what do for you. we sit there and watch you flounder in your sea of despair wishing we could be bring you back. i just wish it didn't have to be you. CHORUS Just a genuine smile is all that we want. the soft hello we used to know. we aren't askin' for the same guy back just as long as you're happy again. i don't like seein' you with all this hurt behind your eyes. i just want your scars to fade... CHORUS So there's that. i'll try to update things soon, but my life is crazy right now, especially with school starting up again next week.
Gonna Be Your Last Told you guys i'd be back soon. and here i am. this one's called Gonna Be Your Last, and well it's about a friend who we were really worried about there for a while. he's pretty much ok now though.So here it is:When I'm lookin' at you it's not like i'm lookin' at the guy i know. it scares me when you're eyes are dead. it makes me wonder what you do behind closed doors. CHORUS:Baby, this ain't the good kind of wonderin' when you look like you want to cry. when i'm afraid that every move you make is gonna be your last. It ain't the good kind of wondering when i don't have to wonder what's on your mind.//I don't like being scared to leave you alone 'cause i don't know if you'll come back to me in one piece or not. why can't you see how much we all care and how much we worry when we've all been there. CHORUS You've gotten so bad and none of us know what do for you. we sit there and watch you flounder in your sea of despair wishing we could be bring you back. i just wish it didn't have to be you. CHORUS Just a genuine smile is all that we want. the soft hello we used to know. we aren't askin' for the same guy back just as long as you're happy again. i don't like seein' you with all this hurt behind your eyes. i just want your scars to fade... CHORUS So there's that. i'll try to update things soon, but my life is crazy right now, especially with school starting up again next week.
Monday, August 18, 2008
sorry...
hey! sorry i've been gone so long. even though i feel like i'm talking to no one here. a bunch of stuff has come up so this has fallen way down on my priority list. i'll get some more songs up, soon. i promise. bear with me for a little longer. ttyl peeps. ttys.
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