Dancing barefoot on the cold wood floor waiting for a call that's never gonna come. The angst is slowly fading, but my toenails are still painted black. My own personal little sacrifice. CHORUS:Life will go on without you,love. I can make it on my own. Everyday is my personal little hell,but time will make it better is what they say.// I look around at all the signs. That the world never knew you were even here. The trains keep going and the stores keep closing. The world just won't stop. CHORUS In my world there's a hole that's slowly healing but the tears still come as i'm dancing. Just because the world don't notice don't mean that i don't.
For you, korry. well that's one of the songs i wrote after she died. and a first, and probably last, two songs in a post. this one is the other i wrote for korry. it's called On Your Terms
Knowing it will never be the same again, not getting to say goodbye. They all say that i'm taking it too hard, but they just don't want to know that it's not gonna be ok. someday maybe it'll be normal, but they don't know she's gone. I want to run, but running can't make me escape myself. i can take the pain, but it still ain't going away. CHORUS:I'm not gonna drag u out of the whole you're digging yourself into like you'd do to me. you need to know what it feels like and you need to know on your own terms.// it hurts to watch the world flounder around me, without her. i feel like i'm stuck as a rock just there to be sat upon. it takes a lot to break me, but life finally got the chisel in just right. CHORUS someday it will be okay, but right now the wounds are still bleeding. dig yourself in deeper.
i know this is a ridiculously long post, but it's easier for me to get this all out in one big blow. i personally like life,love, death best, but comment and vote!!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Sorry... again
I know i promised a post, but there's been a recent death in my inner circle so next week... sorry. I'm trying, i really am. Life just keeps getting in the way
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Quick Hi!
I know i've been gone for a month, but been busy busy busy. Then my computer got a virus... and yeah. so i'll post a real song later, but just wanted to make sure this was still here actually...
Sunday, September 21, 2008
A Little Too Late For Love
Who are you? What have you done? You ain't the boy i knew. Has it really been that long? I could swear it was just yesterday the last time i saw you. You were sweet and freckled-faced with not a care in the world. Now you're sad and solemn-eyed like you've seen too much. I guess you know the pain of a broken heart now. Did i really hurt you as bad as you hurt me? I know it was me 'cause beleive it or not i've been keepin' tabs on you and i know you ain't seen anybody else but me for three long years. They said we were meant to be together forever, but we fell apart before forever was over, yeah. You said you were over me, but i guess you were lyin'. You never were the kind to show how you felt about anything at all. But i guess it's too late to do anything about it now. It's a little too late for love.
That's a 12.27.06 song. There's a few good lines, but i feel that it's rather poorly written overall. It's never felt quite... finished to me. well... talking to a friend so more later.
That's a 12.27.06 song. There's a few good lines, but i feel that it's rather poorly written overall. It's never felt quite... finished to me. well... talking to a friend so more later.
Monday, September 1, 2008
There Goes My Heart
Whoo! a REALLY new song. 8.25 to be exact. so anyway...
You're my muse, my life, my everything. So why am i still waiting? I've walked away from my life before, but everytime i try to leave your soul keeps calling out to me. CHORUS:And then one of us says something stupid and i try to walk away. You say something sweet and there goes my heart again. I fall right into arms that are not there.//This isn't right. We're not more than friends. We never have been. There was only that one-sided infatuation all those years ago and that's over now. CHORUS And when i come to the realization that i've known you for years now my heart starts to beat a little faster, and i wish you couldn't see through all my wall and pretenses. We bother knew where this was leading. Where this was gonna end up. CHORUS There goes my heart again as i fall into arms that are not there to catch me. I should've walked away when i still could. You've got me tied up and when walking isn't an option i run. So you get what you want, i'm safe and lonely again.
so there's that. and just so y'all know i may or may not be posting for a while due to recent happy events. so play it by ear. talk to you all soon i hope.
You're my muse, my life, my everything. So why am i still waiting? I've walked away from my life before, but everytime i try to leave your soul keeps calling out to me. CHORUS:And then one of us says something stupid and i try to walk away. You say something sweet and there goes my heart again. I fall right into arms that are not there.//This isn't right. We're not more than friends. We never have been. There was only that one-sided infatuation all those years ago and that's over now. CHORUS And when i come to the realization that i've known you for years now my heart starts to beat a little faster, and i wish you couldn't see through all my wall and pretenses. We bother knew where this was leading. Where this was gonna end up. CHORUS There goes my heart again as i fall into arms that are not there to catch me. I should've walked away when i still could. You've got me tied up and when walking isn't an option i run. So you get what you want, i'm safe and lonely again.
so there's that. and just so y'all know i may or may not be posting for a while due to recent happy events. so play it by ear. talk to you all soon i hope.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Holding On For You
This 7.17.08 song is one i'm really not to sure about. there are somethings i want to change i just don't know WHAT. There's no chorus so it reads more as a ballad then anything else... *gulp*
I can't hold on. I can't look you in the eye. When i try to be strong, the tears fall again. I try to find the silver lining but all i seem to see is gray. It ain't right that i can't take this anymore. Enduring the pain is easy for me now, but the wounds in my heart are never gonna go away now. Somedays all i want is someone to hold me, somedays it's all i need. But then i look around me and there's no one there to see that i'm not ok, that i'm not alright.
Then there you are, whith your arms around my shoulders telling me that i'll be ok. That i'll see the light again. And i try to beleive every word that you say. I knew the moment you became my anchor to this world i'd have to let you go, but until that day comes i know you'll always show me the clouds in front of the sun are silver, that scars always fade.
Enduring the pain is easy... is my least favorite line. but the metaphors i think really show i feel. this kind of describes the person i needed a few years ago when i was fairly depressed, and is the person i have now (what would i do with out all my lovely friends?). so there's some of my story that you probably didn't need or really even want to know, but it helps make the song make sense i think. i hope anyway.
I can't hold on. I can't look you in the eye. When i try to be strong, the tears fall again. I try to find the silver lining but all i seem to see is gray. It ain't right that i can't take this anymore. Enduring the pain is easy for me now, but the wounds in my heart are never gonna go away now. Somedays all i want is someone to hold me, somedays it's all i need. But then i look around me and there's no one there to see that i'm not ok, that i'm not alright.
Then there you are, whith your arms around my shoulders telling me that i'll be ok. That i'll see the light again. And i try to beleive every word that you say. I knew the moment you became my anchor to this world i'd have to let you go, but until that day comes i know you'll always show me the clouds in front of the sun are silver, that scars always fade.
Enduring the pain is easy... is my least favorite line. but the metaphors i think really show i feel. this kind of describes the person i needed a few years ago when i was fairly depressed, and is the person i have now (what would i do with out all my lovely friends?). so there's some of my story that you probably didn't need or really even want to know, but it helps make the song make sense i think. i hope anyway.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Looking Back (Everytime)
Yay! 2 days in a row. i'm proud of me. here's one written 5.14.08. the title is just gonna be in the title now. saves me the trouble of typing it twice(in case you didn't figure that out yet). There are few parts (i.e., the first line of the CHORUS that i'm not sure about), but there are some lines i heart.
Somedays i think you ain't too bright. somedays i could worship the ground you walk on. it's up and down and all around and my head is spinning. somedays all i want to ask is do you want me or not? baby you're drivin' me insane dancin' around what will never be. I know that we've been over this a million times before, but sometthings still aren't clear. CHORUS:I wish that we could just be without all the ups and sowns that you so graciously provide. i know that somethings will never change but everytime i look in your eyes there's something there i just can't shake.// All i want to know is what you're tryin' to hide. It's always there in your eyes. I thought you knew you could tell me anything.I ain't gonna leave baby, not when i've been left so many times before. CHORUS Bein' with you is always a ride, that i can never deny. You have all your secrets that you're tryin' to hide and I'd like to say all that's left is good-bye, but everytime i turn my back, i have to keep looking back.
Somedays i think you ain't too bright. somedays i could worship the ground you walk on. it's up and down and all around and my head is spinning. somedays all i want to ask is do you want me or not? baby you're drivin' me insane dancin' around what will never be. I know that we've been over this a million times before, but sometthings still aren't clear. CHORUS:I wish that we could just be without all the ups and sowns that you so graciously provide. i know that somethings will never change but everytime i look in your eyes there's something there i just can't shake.// All i want to know is what you're tryin' to hide. It's always there in your eyes. I thought you knew you could tell me anything.I ain't gonna leave baby, not when i've been left so many times before. CHORUS Bein' with you is always a ride, that i can never deny. You have all your secrets that you're tryin' to hide and I'd like to say all that's left is good-bye, but everytime i turn my back, i have to keep looking back.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Gonna Be Your Last
Gonna Be Your Last Told you guys i'd be back soon. and here i am. this one's called Gonna Be Your Last, and well it's about a friend who we were really worried about there for a while. he's pretty much ok now though.So here it is:When I'm lookin' at you it's not like i'm lookin' at the guy i know. it scares me when you're eyes are dead. it makes me wonder what you do behind closed doors. CHORUS:Baby, this ain't the good kind of wonderin' when you look like you want to cry. when i'm afraid that every move you make is gonna be your last. It ain't the good kind of wondering when i don't have to wonder what's on your mind.//I don't like being scared to leave you alone 'cause i don't know if you'll come back to me in one piece or not. why can't you see how much we all care and how much we worry when we've all been there. CHORUS You've gotten so bad and none of us know what do for you. we sit there and watch you flounder in your sea of despair wishing we could be bring you back. i just wish it didn't have to be you. CHORUS Just a genuine smile is all that we want. the soft hello we used to know. we aren't askin' for the same guy back just as long as you're happy again. i don't like seein' you with all this hurt behind your eyes. i just want your scars to fade... CHORUS So there's that. i'll try to update things soon, but my life is crazy right now, especially with school starting up again next week.
Gonna Be Your Last Told you guys i'd be back soon. and here i am. this one's called Gonna Be Your Last, and well it's about a friend who we were really worried about there for a while. he's pretty much ok now though.So here it is:When I'm lookin' at you it's not like i'm lookin' at the guy i know. it scares me when you're eyes are dead. it makes me wonder what you do behind closed doors. CHORUS:Baby, this ain't the good kind of wonderin' when you look like you want to cry. when i'm afraid that every move you make is gonna be your last. It ain't the good kind of wondering when i don't have to wonder what's on your mind.//I don't like being scared to leave you alone 'cause i don't know if you'll come back to me in one piece or not. why can't you see how much we all care and how much we worry when we've all been there. CHORUS You've gotten so bad and none of us know what do for you. we sit there and watch you flounder in your sea of despair wishing we could be bring you back. i just wish it didn't have to be you. CHORUS Just a genuine smile is all that we want. the soft hello we used to know. we aren't askin' for the same guy back just as long as you're happy again. i don't like seein' you with all this hurt behind your eyes. i just want your scars to fade... CHORUS So there's that. i'll try to update things soon, but my life is crazy right now, especially with school starting up again next week.
Monday, August 18, 2008
sorry...
hey! sorry i've been gone so long. even though i feel like i'm talking to no one here. a bunch of stuff has come up so this has fallen way down on my priority list. i'll get some more songs up, soon. i promise. bear with me for a little longer. ttyl peeps. ttys.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Broken Promises
You said you were always gonna be there. broken promises. you said that you cared. broken promises. you said we were gonna be together forever. broken promises
CHORUS:broken promises. yeah that's all i've ever known. no one's ever kept their word. they all promised it would be different this time. broken promises.//
don't know why i still listen to every crazy promise that only hurts in the end. promises are kept at least when i'm around. they are thrown around. CHORUS
all anyone has ever done is said it would be ok, the just go away. you said you would be different. broken promises. so much for that. CHORUS
all i've ever known is pain and suffering. i reached out and trusted you with everything. broken promises. it's always the same. they're all the same. always judgin' who they think they know before they know them. CHORUS
that's the only kind they're are.
That's called Broken Promises. written on 5/14/07. it was just kind of one of those days when i was feeling like no really ever kept their word. these songs are really personal to me. songwriting is about writing what you're feeling at that moment, then going back and organizing it into verses and bridges. and editing and editing, then editing some more. sometimes it takes years to finally get a song, lyrics and musics, perfected.
sometimes it surprises me when i go back reread lyrics to edit them what i was thinking. a lot of it is about people i barley remember. i've written lyrics since i was 8 and am always surprised when the stuff from then if better than stuff from three years ago. i guess it's all just a cycle. btw, if you're going to comment on the lyrics (which i really encourage you to do. it's the purpose of this blog) please don't flame me. and constructive critism is always better than that's awesome or you suck. tell what's good and what is in desprate need of improvement. oh come on, i had to have that.
CHORUS:broken promises. yeah that's all i've ever known. no one's ever kept their word. they all promised it would be different this time. broken promises.//
don't know why i still listen to every crazy promise that only hurts in the end. promises are kept at least when i'm around. they are thrown around. CHORUS
all anyone has ever done is said it would be ok, the just go away. you said you would be different. broken promises. so much for that. CHORUS
all i've ever known is pain and suffering. i reached out and trusted you with everything. broken promises. it's always the same. they're all the same. always judgin' who they think they know before they know them. CHORUS
that's the only kind they're are.
That's called Broken Promises. written on 5/14/07. it was just kind of one of those days when i was feeling like no really ever kept their word. these songs are really personal to me. songwriting is about writing what you're feeling at that moment, then going back and organizing it into verses and bridges. and editing and editing, then editing some more. sometimes it takes years to finally get a song, lyrics and musics, perfected.
sometimes it surprises me when i go back reread lyrics to edit them what i was thinking. a lot of it is about people i barley remember. i've written lyrics since i was 8 and am always surprised when the stuff from then if better than stuff from three years ago. i guess it's all just a cycle. btw, if you're going to comment on the lyrics (which i really encourage you to do. it's the purpose of this blog) please don't flame me. and constructive critism is always better than that's awesome or you suck. tell what's good and what is in desprate need of improvement. oh come on, i had to have that.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
June 22
ok, so this is like a new experience for me. really all i wanted was a place to post my lyrics and maybe some of my music so i get honest critisim from people who don't really know me, but hey maybe once i get into this i'll start posting other random things that pop into my head.
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